Oh well. on the other hand though, I guess that's just two years for me to really think about what I'm gonna do with my life and how I'm gonna get there. And try to fill the gaps while doing my time. I don't feel like I've wasted the past year even though I haven't exactly done anything legit. I've learnt so much I wouldn't trade this part of my life for anything else. It's weird. It's not like I was doing a whole lot of shit, but neither was I bumming the whole time. You might say that I wasted the entire year. But John Lennon once said that time you enjoy wasting, is never wasted. I rest easy on that..

Oh and I havent written this down but i really, really hope that copeland would come to singapore again on their final tour and by our good lord's grace, i will be able to book out of camp and see them for the last time. i'm bummed that i probably can't make it for soundwave next year. the lineup's incredibly amazing. the least fate could do for me is give me copeland! or muse! (i really wanna see them play their new songs live. theyre probably better than they were in 07 and that was already one of the best shows at fort canning ive ever been to, along with incubus)

We're nominated for "most promising act" alongside For This Cycle and Audiocean from sg. weiwen is a bastard cause he gets two shots at this. hahaha but anyway, do vote for us if you think we deserve this title!!! we promise that we'll deliver something worth promising by march 2010. :) just click on the picture above. voting closes 30 nov 09. one vote per hour. OH and FBE is nominated too for best breakthrough act. its another category. DO VOTE FOR THEM TOO!
 

took a day off work today. again. quite randomly. called in sick when i was, but not too seriously.
started writing a song but then had a huge writers block. and now im stuck. hate it when this happens.
been thinking about what to study/what my career would be in the future.
a career in music seems so bleak in this country.

by the time people are my age in america, they would have played warped tour.
i'm sitting ducks here.
GIVE US A SIGN

Ola. been having a pretty busy week, but I like it this way sometimes because there's always something to do. The Fates have not been kind to me yet again, my Imac recently crashed. It refuses to boot up. Randomly, no warning signs of lagging whatsover. One day I just came home and tried switching it on, and it didn't boot up. Called the service people up and discovered that my internal hard disk somehow dismounted. Am currently in the process of emailing them my "proof of purchase" so I can get free servicing. I'm currently using my mum's laptop which is slow as f*** but I'm grateful to even have a device to keep from getting unplugged. Work at the bar is getting annoying because of a combined effect of my own disinterest in bars/drinking/FnB and overly demanding customers. Well its better now that I can get along with colleagues. And now Brendan, poor brendan, is also a colleague. haha. Waking up these past few mornings is also more difficut, I always seem to press "cancel alarm" instead of "snooze" on my phone. Yes, my phone's my alarm clock, I don't have a proper one. phoey. I wish there was more than 24 hours in a day, so nik and i could hang out abit more. I also wish the human body and mind could stay awake for longer without pushing the limit........ but oh well. its all wishful thinking!!

Well other than that, life's been pretty neat. We've been tracking drums, guitars and bass for a song on the EP this week, gonna finish tracking on Saturday and then it's editing and mixing all the way. Sounding sweet so far. I never actually realised how much I like this song, I always thought it had the most cliche lyrics in the world and really boring instrumentation but I'm pleased to honestly say that it's not too bad. Definitely one of the few songs that I'm proud to call ours. It's not that I'm a perfectionist. It's just that we're lousy. But we're working on that. haha...

We've got a show coming up on the 4th of october at scape lab. the band's been through some shit but I'm glad that we're all finally working together again, things are looking up and we're all excited about stuff. It's like we have brand new eyes!

Been spending my hours at the studio, kpo, and youtube. Been getting around on my bike which is honestly a piece of shit but I kinda like it. I've come to realise that travelling on public transport is actually calming in a way. Much more calming than riding a shitty motorcycle to get yourself around. When you're riding your own vehicle, you have to pay attention to everything in order to prevent your own death. Today I almost died, my front tire had a puncture so I rode home on that piece of shit, it was absolutely thrilling but also kind of scary. I received the finger from a random biker for taking up the entire lane. Is it really wrong to actually ride properly instead of squeeze between lanes? I know I'm slower and probably slow you down as well but hey I've got a shitty excuse for a bike and IVE GOT A FLAT TIRE!!!!!

I miss taking public transport, it gives you time to just sit down, plug in to your music and just think about stuff. I find that I quite miss that, I think I will do that soon. I've been watching band of brothers, it's a, I dont quite know how to wrap it up but it's the most intense miniseries ever. it's insane to think of what those guys went through. please watch it if you havent. world war two was such a motherfucking bitch, you start to wonder where God was in all this.

Ah, there's always that revert to my favourite topic. If God exists or not. Well I think I've come to a pretty reasonable conclusion for everyone. The bottom line is that WE DON'T FUCKING KNOW. I don't care how much you "feel" him around. I can see fucking ghosts, and It's not pretty. I dont feel God around. I feel the love of the people around me but that's not god, that's just the people around me. Yes there is an afterlife but as much as I can tell you that I can't find God anywhere anymore, I just don't know. And you probably don't either. No one knows. So dear religious, if everyone just realised that, we won't be fighting about what's supposed to be good and pure. As far as I'm concerned, everything that's good and pure in this world comes from Human Beings. We're capable of a hell lot of destruction (enter WW2) but also a hell lot of love and a whole lot of good and pure things. (enter forrest gump, the retard who ran. i love that movie.)

Enter my weekend, I hope it'll end up being a sweet combination of "productive" and "satisfying."

PEACE!!!!

p.s. the new paramore album is AWESOME